Little Discoveries

When I moved to Bournemouth, I was looking for new adventures and to see different sites, but recently on my fortnight visit to #Barnsley I looked for things to do. I came across #YorkshireWildlifePark located in Doncaster. Believe it or not it’s only 30 miles from where I live and I have never been there in my 30 years of living.

If you haven’t been there go and check it out, I thought it was a zoo but when I was there you realise it’s not actually a Zoo. It’s an amazing place and I got to see some animals that I would never expect to see in Yorkshire… Polar Bears! YES! In Yorkshire!

Have a look at the website: https://yorkshirewildlifepark.com/ It’s well worth the £15 entry fee, in fact I was tempted to buy an annual pass even if that meant I would only probably get to go once more in the year. The animals are so well cared for and in a weird way they actually look happy!

HIGHLIGHTS

Some of the highlights of my trip were: (in no particular order)

  •  Seeing the Polar Bears, Luckily when I got there there were two of them playing with each other in the large river that was in their enclosure. This was a pretty magical site. It got a lot better when further down as I was walking away another one came past and right underneath me. I said to myself there and then this is probably the first and last time I would get this close to a Polar Bear! Such amazing animals, so large and the paws are ridiculously big! 
  • Giraffes’s, 4 of them in the enclosure, I thought the first three that I saw were big but when the 4th one came out it overshadowed the others! So large! 
  • Wallaby – Walking through the Wallaby enclosure, getting up close and personal with them, I noticed a rather large one stood against the fence. (Early reading that baby Wallaby’s stay within the mothers pouch for months and don’t regularly make an appearance) It turned out it was a female who had a baby within the pouch… and guess what.. Yep the baby popped it’s head out for quite some time! Amazing!

It was a great day out and I would highly recommend going to see it if you can get a chance. This post might sound like I have never seen these types of animals before and that I’ve never been to a Zoo, well you would be wrong, I’ve been to quite a few but this one was different, very different and I’m not sure why. Go and give it a visit and see if you think the same!

New beginning

Well after my last post “Stressed I think” I’ve had a lot of time to think about things and how I am going to continue! I’ve realised that it is work that is making me into someone I’m not, I’ve had lots of rants to people about how I would rather be out of work than unhappy but I won’t be doing anything silly like that. That was just because of how wound up I was about the situation and it seems to just be a downward spiral. I’m going to continue doing what I am doing in a hope that I can get the passion back for it and continue to do what I love doing.

I’ve loved every minute of working for the past 9 years and a little blip once in that time is something that is expected, it would be stupid for me to throw it all away for something so stupid. A simple chat could probably sort it all out.

So now that I am feeling better about the situation, a week away from the office and being back home has probably helped, along with lots of cuddles from my dogs too. I think I may have been feeling a little home sick and alone also which didn’t help the situation.

The only way I can explain how I feel is a cloud has been lifted from around me and I can see all the good things in my life whereas before I couldn’t.

I’m hoping that this continues, I have another week away from the office now so hoping that I feel refreshed when I have to go back. I’m also looking at booking a weeks sun holiday where I can completely shut off from everything and just recharge the batteries!

Sorry for the boring posts, this is just something I need to do so I can eventually read back when I am feeling rubbish again to bring me back to reality!

Stressed I think

So I’ve not been on here much lately and there is a good reason for that, I’m having a really hard time at the minute in and out of work. Everything is getting too much for me and I’m finding it really difficult to concentrate, be motivated and basically as I like to say “Gone into Self Destruct Mode”. I seem to be to put it nicely fucking everything up around me slowly and I don’t seem to care who I hurt in the process. I’m slowly turning into someone I don’t like and I’m not sure how to deal with it, some people have told me to go to the doctors but that even sounds like too much hard work. I seem to be wanting to suffer in silence at the minute and no matter what anyone says I’m just not listening, well I am but not taking any action or listening to what they say!

It seems that if I hear something it sends me off when I’m feeling calm into some kind of rage where I just moan, become tense and unhappy again! It’s never happened before.

I’m slowly turning into someone that I don’t know, I don’t like and I don’t want to be!

I’ve recently left work for nearly two weeks, 1 week working from home and 1 week annual leave. I can already see a difference in myself and no longer feeling like I’m someone I’m not! My old self is coming back out and people around me can also see it. I really have no idea what to do in this situation or to rectify it!